Farewell MIA

The entire month of October was a mismatch of joy and heartbreak.  My son came home from Afghanistan.  Got to meet his new baby girl Mackayla for the first time.  He was reunited with him wife and children and  all seemed to be right with the world.   I was very relieved and great joy washed over me to know my baby had made it home again safe from the war again.  Then by that same weekend my  heart broke in two.  I was reading facebook and one of the post read, please pray for my granddaughter  and her friends who were hit by a car last night and is fighting for their lives. I stopped cold and read it again because someone is always asking for prayers.   I work with Mia’s grandmother Cecie and used to work with her grandfather Howard.  They are wonderful people and did not deserve this horrendous suffering  that was thrown upon them.    Mia  and her friends were in the crosswalk coming home from the park with her big sister. It was horrible accident and the woman driving was very careless.  Once she hit the girls she did not stop for 50 yards ( that is half a football field) .  These little five and six year old girls did not deserve this.  Mia suffered many injuries and her little body could not sustain and hang onto life any longer and she went to be with the lord on October 24, 2011.    Even though Mia was not my flesh and blood it did not stop me from loving her and caring about her like she was one of my own.   Last week we laid little Mia fragile body to rest.  I know in my heart she is sitting next to God helping him teach all the new angels flying lesson cause that’s just the way she was.  Sassy, bossy and full of life, nit meet anyone who was not her friend.   God Bless you little Mia I feel safe knowing you are watching over us all.  You will always be beautiful and young and full of spirit.   You will always live in our hearts.  

Dedicated to Amelia Paige Decker  November 30, 2004 – October  24, 2011.

I am writing this post tonight with a  very heavy heart.   Two very dear friends are sitting at the UMC  Children’s hospital  watching vigilance over their 6 year old grandchild that was hit by a car on Friday night.  She is only 6 years old and is very critical condition along with two other girls her age.  They were walking home with her from the park they were  in the crosswalk crossing the street and a 78 year old lady pulls around the  stopped car and plow into the  three young girls while the two older girls watched.   I cannot imagine how her sister feels watching her younger sister getting hit by that car and now knowing  she might not live thru the night. 

I look at the week I have had with my own personal heath issue and nothing can be as bad as this.  Just holding on to every ounce of hope and praying that there will be a miracle.  Please keep this family in your prayers. And pray for a miracle.  

I can’t concentrate on anything I think I am going insane.

It has been one of those week were I have tried to look at others for my own happiness.  I have to stop and remember that I can only make me happy.  Once I am happy I can enjoy the happiness of others.  This menopause sucks.  It has my heart, my head and my body standing on edge.   Most of the time I feel like I’ve got a lighted match under my skin.    I cry at the drop of a hat and my head is somewhere other than on my shoulders, I am afraid to bend over to see if that’s where is gone.  It is driving me crazy, put the covers on, kick the cover off, turn on the ceiling fan, turn off the ceiling fan.   Wake up in the night ringing wet, get up and change clothes. Good thinks I have lots of jammies.    Look at babies  and start to cry cause  my babies aren’t babies anymore. My head is everywhere except where it should be. I love to do art but can’t see to focus.   Can’t sit still, hard to concentrate at work , hard to sit still but don’t have the energy to do anything  other than just sit around.  Sometimes I feel like I want to crawl out of my skin.  Now that I have put this on paper I am thinking maybe I need to go see a professional.  Oh yeah I did and what did she say you are in MENOPAUSE… IT WILL PASS… I want to know when because I’ve forgotten how to laugh at myself.    And laughter is the best medicine and of course an apple a day.   

A New Month and a New Attitude

Hi - It’s a new month and I am hoping this one will be happy, busy and creative.  I am looking forward to my son coming home from Afghanistan sometime this month.  I won’t get to see him until Christmas time but at least he will be back on American soil.    I have been doing really pretty well with my swaps.   I have completed 4 and had all ratings of fives and hearts (which is the top rating) on all of them.    I am very excited about that.   I am looking forward to a round robin mixed media book that I have gotten involved with.  I have picked a vintage theme for my book.   My first page has to be sent out by October 12, 2011 and that is pretty exciting.  I hope I can be as equally inspirational and creative as my fellow participants.  I am also getting ready for a craft fair I am doing with a friend, I am very excited about that and hopefully it will go well.   My other friend is going to come over on Friday and we are going to have a craft day so that should be fun.  I am in need of some laughter   in my life.  I think life is way to short not to have fun and be kind and loving to each other.  So on that note - Love you all thanks for stopping by and please follow my blog if you don’t already.