I am feeling so blue today. I am not really sure why, I can feel the sadness creeping in my soul. I have to work today so I will not be able to create. Most of the time that takes the blues away and makes me feel much better. I think it’s because I feel like I have accomplished something when I am finished. Maybe it because it brings the joy out instead of the darkness lingering inside of me. Have you ever heard that saying Insanity: Doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results. That is how I feel when I try to deal with my father. I always want to say , you would give the shirt off your back for a stranger but wouldn’t do anything to help your own family. I just don’t understand it. But every time I think I will get a different reaction and I just keep disappointing myself. After 56 years you would think I would learn. But instead I set myself up for the rejection. Now I have to wonder if there is something wrong with me or is the other person???? I’d be happy to hear any thoughts or comments on this subject.