I am writing this post tonight with a  very heavy heart.   Two very dear friends are sitting at the UMC  Children’s hospital  watching vigilance over their 6 year old grandchild that was hit by a car on Friday night.  She is only 6 years old and is very critical condition along with two other girls her age.  They were walking home with her from the park they were  in the crosswalk crossing the street and a 78 year old lady pulls around the  stopped car and plow into the  three young girls while the two older girls watched.   I cannot imagine how her sister feels watching her younger sister getting hit by that car and now knowing  she might not live thru the night. 

I look at the week I have had with my own personal heath issue and nothing can be as bad as this.  Just holding on to every ounce of hope and praying that there will be a miracle.  Please keep this family in your prayers. And pray for a miracle.  

I can’t concentrate on anything I think I am going insane.

It has been one of those week were I have tried to look at others for my own happiness.  I have to stop and remember that I can only make me happy.  Once I am happy I can enjoy the happiness of others.  This menopause sucks.  It has my heart, my head and my body standing on edge.   Most of the time I feel like I’ve got a lighted match under my skin.    I cry at the drop of a hat and my head is somewhere other than on my shoulders, I am afraid to bend over to see if that’s where is gone.  It is driving me crazy, put the covers on, kick the cover off, turn on the ceiling fan, turn off the ceiling fan.   Wake up in the night ringing wet, get up and change clothes. Good thinks I have lots of jammies.    Look at babies  and start to cry cause  my babies aren’t babies anymore. My head is everywhere except where it should be. I love to do art but can’t see to focus.   Can’t sit still, hard to concentrate at work , hard to sit still but don’t have the energy to do anything  other than just sit around.  Sometimes I feel like I want to crawl out of my skin.  Now that I have put this on paper I am thinking maybe I need to go see a professional.  Oh yeah I did and what did she say you are in MENOPAUSE… IT WILL PASS… I want to know when because I’ve forgotten how to laugh at myself.    And laughter is the best medicine and of course an apple a day.   

A New Month and a New Attitude

Hi - It’s a new month and I am hoping this one will be happy, busy and creative.  I am looking forward to my son coming home from Afghanistan sometime this month.  I won’t get to see him until Christmas time but at least he will be back on American soil.    I have been doing really pretty well with my swaps.   I have completed 4 and had all ratings of fives and hearts (which is the top rating) on all of them.    I am very excited about that.   I am looking forward to a round robin mixed media book that I have gotten involved with.  I have picked a vintage theme for my book.   My first page has to be sent out by October 12, 2011 and that is pretty exciting.  I hope I can be as equally inspirational and creative as my fellow participants.  I am also getting ready for a craft fair I am doing with a friend, I am very excited about that and hopefully it will go well.   My other friend is going to come over on Friday and we are going to have a craft day so that should be fun.  I am in need of some laughter   in my life.  I think life is way to short not to have fun and be kind and loving to each other.  So on that note - Love you all thanks for stopping by and please follow my blog if you don’t already.