It has been one of those week were I have tried to look at others for my own happiness. I have to stop and remember that I can only make me happy. Once I am happy I can enjoy the happiness of others. This menopause sucks. It has my heart, my head and my body standing on edge. Most of the time I feel like I’ve got a lighted match under my skin. I cry at the drop of a hat and my head is somewhere other than on my shoulders, I am afraid to bend over to see if that’s where is gone. It is driving me crazy, put the covers on, kick the cover off, turn on the ceiling fan, turn off the ceiling fan. Wake up in the night ringing wet, get up and change clothes. Good thinks I have lots of jammies. Look at babies and start to cry cause my babies aren’t babies anymore. My head is everywhere except where it should be. I love to do art but can’t see to focus. Can’t sit still, hard to concentrate at work , hard to sit still but don’t have the energy to do anything other than just sit around. Sometimes I feel like I want to crawl out of my skin. Now that I have put this on paper I am thinking maybe I need to go see a professional. Oh yeah I did and what did she say you are in MENOPAUSE… IT WILL PASS… I want to know when because I’ve forgotten how to laugh at myself. And laughter is the best medicine and of course an apple a day.